disdain

"You do. What you tell me about in the nights. That is not love. That is only passion and lust. When you love you wish to do things for. You wish to sacrifice for. You wish to serve."
-e. hemmingway

i am so
confused.

1 and 1/2 years later today was the last day of my internship. pretty crazy. interesting, shattering, and through thousands of rebirths there has been some sort of dynamic shift, though it hasnt completely developed im in quite and interesting place.

how is it i have learned so much about you- the things you dont "know"- i, understanding how much more there is to know, finding everyone to be exceedingly retarded. reminds me of the einstein quote. more or less. it is really becoming an annoyance to my personal happiness being so disgusted by certain human behavior and how far away we have come from knowing ourselves and others by allowing this infestation of distraction take over our lives.

i think you all need to buck the fuck up, grab your balls or knockers and stop being such a pussy. there are worse things out there. but it seems so many are so self consumed. you cowards. pft.