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and he said, "blah blah blah, blah blah." and i said "FUCK YOU." and he thought, nothing- and i thought, long; long and hard.

synchronicity.

i follow footsteps to the Water-

it seems i have been here before

the sounds of hushed voices reach shore and fall back to their homes.

we speak like this.

moving in and out of Ourselves-

watching vultures soar

and prey we are if we aren’t aware.



we find ourselves in communications of spirit.

a breeze gliding through the forest

fustling leaves and psychedelic pupil dilated rapture.

we feel it against our skins like an answered prayer;

a glimpse of truth.



fluid and life are abstract in my underwater world-

there is nothing,
(not even weight)

and these shoulders are light and strong and agile


and my essance is that of Hers and We unify and She brings me under Her velvet cloak.
We make love like this
We become each other and G-d is smiling.

i float on my back,

She lulls me to sleep in this kind of motion and my voice collides to shore.
someone else has heard me.
it seems she has been here before.


(a bit of editing needed, but really almost quite there)

who gives a shit. thats the real answer.

you teach me these lessons through specific people and its like this crazy beautiful synchronized thing. being disappointed in someone, "i thought you were...". even the people we respect become so very human when they aren't fully aware. we wonder, "how could this be?" and after much consideration and silence and smoke we come to realizations. "it does not work because..." and we are relieved of our burning ego's and distractions and the anxiety was for nothing and everything was nothing but it was just so beautiful to epiphanize (yup making up my own words) and grow. another stage. a hight level of consciousness. glory glory hallelujah.

the universe: a provider

so it goes something like this: if you put the intention out there, i mean really pure intention that isn't driven really by the ego, rather, the essence/soul the universe becomes your true provider.

on another note, i really enjoy my job- i couldn't even ask for a better one at the moment. its like the job title is just "be yourself linda" aha. all i have to do is really love them all (which is both energizing and draining). which led me to this sort of small epiphany tonight:

i was driving back towards roslyn dropping sharon off at her house and we were listening to this one song in particular (lived in bars by cat power) telling her these days its been my favorite song, how its so fun and wonderful and lyrically beautiful even though her words are depressing... you're happy and your sad and you feel everything

(and then a glimpse of the meditation retreat comes back and you remember her saying something along the lines of how when you are happy if you are completely present at the same conscious moment you see what is sad vice versa... how this is harmony)

somehow these thoughts ran through my head and it came together with the music and i realized i was feeling every emotion at the same time, continuously- and i felt, so very very alive.